Steph Holmbo’s Blazer Speaks
You said it yourself in the letter you wrote to a dear friend to begin your day,
“The mountains look beautiful today.”
And they do. You’re right.
I know this wasn’t what you wanted or even what you though you would settle for. And it’s got you waking up too early to listen to things you’d never thought you’d have to care about like excel spreadsheets and constant contact and answering the phone with a smile on your face (even though they can’t see it, they can hear it)
but here we are, blazer on, heels buckled. You’ve got a green apple to your right and freshly made coffee in an adorable mug so take a breath.
You’re doing a fantastic job. I watch you stretch to the alarm, never press snooze, and brush your teeth for exactly two minutes. You have been office appropriate clothing and putting on make-up consistently and looking the part.
The first time we met your roommate was helping you shop for a circus cabaret in which you were toeing the slutty, trashy, dancer outfit (if there ever was a line to toe between those three things) and she pulled out this fire engine red piece of office wear, stuck a push up bra underneath the hanger and exclaimed, “TA DA costume!”
Now I have been given the lucky opportunity to be paired with business slacks and knee length dresses and button up blouses. And I watch the way your eyes get shiny if someone mentions the theatre. I feel your shoulder shrug, before arching and over compensating because you think no one notices. Your hands constantly wander towards the arts section of The Denver Post or what auditions are happening in the near future. This isn’t what you thought your future would look like, but my dear, you are so young. This isn’t the end for you. You’ve always been in a hurry but this is a good lily pad leap you’ve made on this life current we’re riding on. I have not been with you on all those other adventures. I am a new part of your every day but I think this can be a good partnership. This state has always been a good place to begin the second chance.
So let the first chance go. He is not doing you any favors and you are the one holding the rope. So let it go. Let’s start over. Yes it will be different and hard in all the ways you didn’t expect but these sleeves were made to catch snot and mascara. The mountains do look beautiful today. Give them a shot to really take your breath away.